I didn't purposefully stay up until midnight, but I couldn't fall asleep because of the fireworks.  I didn't even bother to take a peek outside at the display for even a minute - didn't seem like anything special this year.

I'm not interested in a lot of things anymore.  Friends who leave everything to the past-tense, who ask for a general overview of my life without bothering to ask about what those things actually meant, who can't even comprehend that there was much more substance in the cracks in between.  Meaningless interactions that are supposed to be part of the quintessential 20-something experience.  Boys who only act to get a reaction out of me.  People who settle.  People who expect to be happy 24/7 and play the victim when they aren't and use that as an excuse for their mistakes.

All these things that annoy me are from my own faults, of being cold and logical and critical.  Not letting anyone in until I know I can trust them.  Not making more effort than necessary.  At this point though, I don't have any resolutions to changing that.  Then again, this overall frustration is also a sign of caring too much... ironically.  It's selfish to not give your all to people when love is what everyone needs.

According to the zodiac calendar, this year is supposed to be ours (the sheep - the cautious, sensitive ones).  Who knows?

Passed the Anatomy final!  Also got an A in Clin Skills without studying, and did pretty well in OPP too.

... Now onto three more killer tests tomorrow.

Study break - mini crying session.  Then you just have to move on and keep at it.

-  It's sweet and flattering, having a non-female friend telling you "You're gorgeous.  Really." for no reason.  But I can't respond with anything other than a "Pfft!"
('Cause really, even if it were true, what good does it do if guys don't talk to me anyway?  If the cute second year doesn't notice me? XD)

-  Why is it that when people discount Christianity it's almost always in a mocking, cynical way, but they can calmly discuss Islam, Buddhism, and all other faiths they don't believe in with a respectful, open-minded, academic attitude?  Is it because they believe they know what Christianity really is?  That they've been scarred by it or its people somehow? They say that the Bible's teachings don't show a loving God - but then how in the world do any of the other religions either?

-  The events all over the world are frightening.  It really is a dangerous place, especially for women.  It hasn't gotten much better after all these millenia.  It's heartbreaking and terrifying.  I don't understand.