Brave


No matter how much we have accomplished in medicine, there's nothing so fragile as life.  From the beginning it seems like I've been pulled where my heart beat the strongest and the steadiest - in the midst of hope and suffering - in order to relieve it in whatever capacity I have with whatever skills God has given.

The minute I got in the car this morning I had a stronger urge to pray than usual for the moms and the babies I would see, and after tonight we clearly needed the extra acknowledgement that God is God, powerful, and good.  He holds each one of us in His hand in a delicate, grace-filled balance with each breath.

In the face of these tough cases, I am surprised that I do not want to run away.  I stood there firm and clear-headed with the task before us as we did the best we could for our patient, and there is no other position I would rather be in.

Praying for baby and mom, the family, the doctors, and the future.

To bagel or not to bagel, that is the question

It's my official first activated day on this app... and it's already causing stress.  Does my profile sound stupid?  I feel so judgmental.  How can you pass on someone with just a few sentences and pictures?
Just how important is wording?  Do normal people actually do online dating?  Am I not normal?  What if the resident I saw on there sees me too?  Awkward all around...


Personal Protective Equipment

Being in medicine seems to put up a quick barrier between you and others the moment it's mentioned (which is usually very quickly).  Part of me has always wanted that automatic, safe distance.  Part of me wonders if it'll keep me away from everyone.

Soul food

Prayed with a patient for the first time today.  Not sure if it was exactly allowed (but don't think it's not allowed either?) but it seemed like she really needed it and she had faith, so I offered.  She was the type of patient who no matter what you tried, you would just be going in circles.  Nothing could really be done for her unless her spirit stopped hurting.  In her case, it was the most important part of her symptoms.