Today was the first day of summer, and I felt like I was really filled and blessed.  I climbed Rattlesnake Trail with friends and met an amazing view of lush green mountain peaks, crystalline water, and wispy skies.  For the first time in a long time I felt like someone actually wanted to know something about me, not just facts about me.  My internal clock did not tick away to warn me to quickly move on to the next thing.

As short as this summer is going to be, I'm going to make sure I'm "full" in order to be ready for the next step.  Life is always on the move nowadays, so it's moments like these that I'm grateful that I can still stop and breathe deep.

Dear Future You,

There's a lot of the world that I still need to see, and a lot of things I still need to accomplish.  I explore not to find a missing piece, but to see how much more I can expand.  My wandering feet do not mean a wandering heart.  It seems like life these days keeps on pulling me from home to a distant somewhere, and I hope maybe it's in the direction a little closer to wherever you are.

Please know that wherever I am, I'm not too far away.  I'll always come back - very soon, if you want me to - just ask.  And you can even come along, if you'd like.

One day.

Why have I always been like this?  I'm always being defined by favor, by those in charge entrusting me as someone who's mature and capable.  Taking mistakes and "getting in trouble" so personally...  As cashier, I was somehow short $13 at the end and my boss seemed pretty ticked and I was tip-toe-ing the whole rest of my shift.  Nothing else seemed to go smoothly.  Even though it's only been a week since we opened, I feel like they want us to know everything.

With each improvement, there's something else that I do wrong.  Maybe I'm not cut out for this.  Am I just being too sensitive?