Yesterday was the first day of women's bible study, and I actually felt at peace in the group, despite the majority still being a lot older.  I think most people did not know each other, so I suppose that made it easier too, but it was cozy and witness-filled.  We went over this past Sunday's sermon about the commandment to not take God's name in vain, and how that can be anything from saying 'omg' to using church lingo like PTL flippantly.  We often forget how awesome God's name in itself is, and don't give it the reverence it should have.

One thing that came as a slow realization is that I am really bad with confessing my sins out loud.  I try to word them in such a way that tries to almost justify them and make me look less bad, which comes off as kind of arrogant and... vain.  Thinking back to the past few weeks and my irritability and strongholds, it just feels really shameful.  Maybe the feeling of struggle is because of the change that needs to happen.  Most of my life I've always been considered the good kid, so that mindset is something I haven't been able to shake... but as good as I could ever try to be, I still could never be considered good in His eyes without Jesus.  God sure does have patience, and I really felt Him moulding my heart lately.  So thank You.