Ever so slightly, it's already starting to get warmer like a promise of possibilities to come. Just need to keep on working hard.
They say that it's barren here, that Seattle has so much more greenery and lush nature. That may be true, but those people haven't looked up at the sky. Every day, the sun sets in different colors.
- How to be young (again).
- How to genuinely say sorry, and how much healing there is from letting go of bitterness every time.
- I want to be found and pursued... but so does he, whoever he is.
- I may never be good at big parties and mingling. Maybe I'll always have the urge to go hide in the bathroom or sit alone on the porch until someone comes to find me, but that's okay. Even though gatherings are uncomfortable and can feel futile, they're still very important. They hold so much possibility. You never know who you'll be able to reach out to in a moment. So keep on showing up and keep your eyes open.
- Keep your best memories close. They will serve you well. In dark times, they will remind you that there are more memories to be made.
- No one's too deep for God to reach. It doesn't make sense and might not seem "fair," but that's the beauty of His grace. And I'm thankful, because I definitely didn't deserve it either.
When shopping and I'm tempted to stop into a store that's obviously too expensive and shiny and dream-like to even bother, my mother always says, "That's not for us. Let's move on."
It's like peering into the dazzling window display and knowing you'll never afford the contents. It's like a restaurant you want to try, but you aren't dressed properly and you can't even read the menu. It's stopping before even starting, every single time.
When I see someone with whom I can imagine it might just work, a voice tells me "Don't bother, you're not for them. Know where you stand. Keep on going."
It hurts too much to search.
